Basics: Stephanie Zhu. February 13, 1994; 18 yrs old. Studies biochemisty/molecular biology at UC Davis. San Francisco, California. Taken by Steven Huang since January 27, 2008. Happy-go-lucky kind of girl. Positive, confident, and unbelievably happy. Blessed with life. Love for all things beauty. I hope to inspire you in one way or another. Get to know me, I'm friendly! Xoxo

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Respect your parents ..

I have a confession ...
I absolutely hate it when kids/teens/etc disrespect their parents. It like hurts me to see people saying " Ugh, i hate my mom ! " or "Ugh, my dads a bitch. " If you really think about it, they went through a whole lot raising you up only to get hatred in return ?.. If you hate your parents because they don't let you out that much, its only because they care about you. It hurts them to see you get hurt & they just don't want anything happening to you. I believe that no matter what happens, your parents would ALWAYS love & care about you. They may show it in a different way cause hey, their like what ? 30 ish years older then you ? Their generation was really different then ours & they arn't used to our ways. Respect the way they choose to raise you & appreciate all they've done for you. Everyday, they put themselves through so much hard work from day to night just so you have a place to live & food to eat. So the next time you say you "hate" them for not buying you something you want, take a second and think about how hard they worked for that money. Show your parents some respect cause in my opinion, they truly deserve it.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Everything cleared up ..

I have a confession ...
Well, my last blog wasn't in a good mood. But luckily, things are worked out & everything needed/wanted to be said, was. I'm in a good mood now & i hope the rest of you guys feel better :) LOL you know who you are ! We'll see how the upcoming hangout days turn out to be but i promisee i'll make the effort & change what i did wrong. Okay, its getting late :/ I'm gonna end this right here. Just wanted to update that everythings worked out & so scratch the last blog :X

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Is it permanent change ? ..

I have a confession ...
Things have been different for about a month now. Whatever happened to the fun we used to have ? Some of you know who and what I'm talking about, others may not. I mean personally, I've been " not in the mood " to hang out w/ anyone. Every time we do hang out, things are boring, awkward, or someone gets angry/bitchy/pissed/etc. Either it's me pmsing or everyone have permanently changed. Yeah, every one of us probably knows its happening. We write about it, talk bout it behind each others backs, & think about it every so often. Obviously, we miss it. Something is bothering each of us but we haven't talked about it altogether. For me, i know what exactly is bothering me. I just can't find a way to express it. As much as i want to sit down & talk to you guys, the words just won't come out .. would it be better if i revealed by true feelings ? or will everything eventually clear up itself ? I don't know what to do or what to say anymore. Yeah, its obviously hurting every one of us in different ways. Whether or not we admit it is our own choice. How will we fix this ?.. Will it ever end ?..

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Quick one ..

So i'm real tired and i don't really want to write a confession :/ Hm, i'll just put in a quotee:" Live life passionately, love unconditionally. Hope for the best, laugh your heart out, cry when you need to, learn from the past. & remember, what is meant to be will always find it’s way. "
P.S: I had a really bad day ):

Friday, March 27, 2009

Life-changing friends ..

So today is March 27 & it's a special day for two reasons. First off, it's my best friend's birthday ! Ahaha, jk shes a dumb hobo that i hate. LOL nah we just joke like thatt. But yeahs, on a serious note, she's been there for me since like wha ? 2-3 years now ? Gives the best advice, makes me laugh uncontrollably, and we almost never have fights ! Although we don't have that much time to hang anymore, i don't really consider it as fading cause seriously ? us fading ? AHAHA. Ew why am i being all sweet, man fuck her. Enough bout her ! LOL Okay, 2nd reason is cause its me & my boyfriends' 1 year & 2 month anniversaryy. We're getting to the point where we don't even remember our anniversaries ! So today i didn't remember till like 1st period in class when i wrote out the date LOL i was like FUCK ! it's the 27th again ! O.O and after class i went up to him and asked " do you know what day it is ? " and he said Friday. LOOOOOL Poor baby :( Oh well though, i wasn't mad cause i didn't remember eitherr. But yeahs, this boyy; im fucking crazy about him :) It's been hella fucking long and our spark is still there. Okay this blog is real long and boring .. This is my first real blog, thats not like a confession .. Okiee im done blabbering !
Happy Birthday Hobbbbb !
Happy Anniversary Hubby :)
Love you guys !
" You guys are one of the best things that have ever happened to me & it's incredible how one person can make such a big difference in my life.”

Thursday, March 26, 2009

I've had enough ..

I have a confession ...
I hate it when people take advantage of me. Well, idk how to describe it so heres a scenario: So lets say if i do something wrong by acc and another person (#1) does that same thing, the person(#2) we do it to will get mad at me. Not the other person(#1). Idk why this happens but i've been putting up with this all my life. Maybe its because no matter what happens, i always just " drop it " or forget about it. I mean its hard for me to hold grudges, in fact, i NEVER hold grudges. But im fed up and tired of this. When and if this happens again, don't expect me to give a damn cause i've had enough. I'm done w/ being " nice " or w/e, im done w/ forgiving easily, i'm done w/ putting up with other peoples shit that i shouldn't even have to deal about!
" Everyone goes through phases, livin' in a world that chances. Sometimes it's hard to find a world i call mine. "
P.S: Sorry if this offends anyone cause it sounds a lil harsh :/ Just venting but i'll be fine in a second :)

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

True happiness comes within yourself ..

Oops, i skipped three days :/ I'm sorry ! haha, i was busy. Anyways:
I have a confession ...
I've been real happy these days w/ no ones help :) I've been more independent recently and realized i don't need other people to be happy. I can make myself happy, i can make myself laugh, i can make myself enjoy life. In rough situations, looking onto a positive side really helps. I've been having hella hw lately but ay, i'm not stressing about it cause either way i gotta do it; whether its in a good or bad mood, its really up to me. I've come to realize that when i'm in a good mood, i can get things done a lot quicker. I don't need someone to vent to to be in that good mood, i can get there myself. On the other hand, i haven't been showing any love to anyone. But ay " you can't give love if you don't feel it yourself. " I'm not givin love cause i'm not getting any. It's okay though, cause i'm doing perfectly fine the way things are. No one can get in the way of my happiness :)
"Happiness has to come from within yourself before you are truly happy with the world around you. "

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Airplanes ..

Make- up post for March 21, 2009:
I have a confession ..

I am terrified of airplanes, especially when they lift off. Even time, i always pretend or try to fall asleep. It's kinda stupid though, because " you have a better chance of being killed by a donkey then in an airplane crash " Ahaha, i don't believe that shit thoughh. + i just saw " Knowing " and it showed an airplane crash ! Scary .. :/ & i gotta go on one in June. I'm scared .. !

Saturday, March 21, 2009

It's NOT the end of the world ..

Make-up post for March 20, 2009:
I have a confession ...
I'm very forgetful. Well yeah, everyone forgets things once in a while but i always blame it on myself. Like today, i fuckin had an appointment w/ the counselor & i completely forgot. -.- & i was already in a bad mood, i had to make my grandpa wait. I ended up terribly mad at myself but i took it out on other people. Or maybe i was pmsing .. i'm not sure but basic point: when i do a little thing wrong, I'll become so pissed at myself & feel like it's the end of the world when in reality, its not even that bad ... ><

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Loneliness ..

I have a confession ..
I'm never able to feel comfortable in school. I went into high school afraid that i won't find people to hang w/, relate to, or trust. Everything i hoped wouldn't happen, did. As i walk through the hallways this very day, i see many people giving me intimidating glances. Yeah, I've made friends but it's just those " hi & bye " types. Throughout all 8 months of school, i still haven't found that ' perfect best friend ' who's there for me 24/7. Sure i have my middle school friends & my boyfriend but half the time in class, I'm alone. By now, I've practically gotten used to being alone .. i'm sick of it. When will things start to feel more comfortable ? When will i start feeling loved ..

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Jealousy hits ..

I have a confession ..
For some reason, jealousy hits me so easily. The simplest things my boyfriend does gets to me. I mean, i know he's faithful, i trust him. But whenever he's with another girl, it hurts me in some way. Even if their in a relationship ! Whenever i have something on my mind, i'd always tell him; so whenever i get jealous, i tell him. This causes a bunch of arguments & i know he's fed up with me acting like this .. but honestly, i can't change it. Yeah, i tried multiple times but i always end up feeling the same way. I start being in denial and lying to myself / others. I know deep down i still have jealousy issues but i hide it & tell him everything is fine. Therefore, baby, i'm sorry for all the unnecessary fights i have caused us due to my jealously. However, i can't change this feeling. But keep in mind that I'm only jealous because i love him a whole lot, i just want him to completely be mine. No other girl in the way, mine, & only mine ..

Intro :)

So i decided to start a " daily confession " blog like thing :) I hope that this time, i'll actually keep up with it cause usually, i start something and by the 2nd week i just give it up completely. I dont think anyone would read this .. so im not gonna put it in my profile & shits until i feel like it. Mkay, here it goes :)
P.S : Oh yeah, so everyday, i'll try to include a picture that relates to my topic or just anything pretty :)