Basics: Stephanie Zhu. February 13, 1994; 18 yrs old. Studies biochemisty/molecular biology at UC Davis. San Francisco, California. Taken by Steven Huang since January 27, 2008. Happy-go-lucky kind of girl. Positive, confident, and unbelievably happy. Blessed with life. Love for all things beauty. I hope to inspire you in one way or another. Get to know me, I'm friendly! Xoxo

Wednesday, February 29, 2012


So much on my mind! Starting to feel stressed out >:T

Thursday, February 23, 2012

New Tumblr theme!

Looks so glamorous ^^

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Will I ever get time to rest?

I hate how when something finally comes back together, something else begins to fall apart. I just need some peace and quiet. I need some room to breathe. 

This is all so unnecessary. It's something we'll look back at in the future and laugh at how ridiculous we were. But then again, you're not who I thought you were. So maybe I'm wrong, maybe this is necessary. Maybe this was supposed to happen so I could finally open my eyes to who you are. Maybe, this is the ending to another chapter in my life. A part of me is ready to give up, because I don't deserve to have to deal with this. But another part of me won't allow myself to let go. The thought of the pain is already too much to bear. Will you please just prove me wrong? Stop acting so ignorant, selfish, stubborn, irrational, vulgar, cold, bitter, and unreasonable. Who are you?.. Please just tell me this was all a joke. 

Answering random questions...

1. Name two of the most significant people in your life and explain why.
My mother: I think it's pretty obvious why she's significant in my life. She has loved, nurtured, and cared for me my entire life. She provided me with the best childhood imaginable and is honestly, the best mother in the world. Not only is she an incredible mother but she is also the strongest woman I know. I'd be lucky if I grew up to be half as good of a person as she is. Blessed to have her as my mother and best friend.
My boyfriend: Again, I think that's pretty obvious. I honestly don't know how I happened to get so lucky by finding such an incredible man. He spoils me with love and kindness. He's my better half and I am head over heels in love with him. Best, best friend I could ever ask for. I'd be the luckiest girl alive if I end up marrying him. Heck, I'm already the luckiest girl alive by having him as my boyfriend.

2. What is your stance on religion? Would you affiliate yourself with any?
Eh, I'm not religious in any way. I honestly don't strongly believe in any religion and I just don't understand it. I believe in God, but not in a particular religion. It just isn't significant to me.

3. Name five things from your wish list.
Hm.. I'm going to be practical.
Personal wish list: Getting into one of my top university choices, being taken off my medication and no longer epileptic, getting my license, maintaining a positive relationship with everyone I love, and continuing to be as happy as I currently am :)
Materialistic: Diamond fashion ring, Louis Vuitton Purse(s), MK Watch, Channel bag(s), & more shoes. (You can never have enough shoes ^^) <- these are just things I'd purchase first if I had the money.

4. Do you read? If so, what are your three favorite books?
Yes, I do! But I wish I had more time to read. The Child Called "It", Don't sweat the small stuff & it's all small stuff, & The Hunger Games.

5. If you could live anywhere, where would you live and why?
Hm.. I'd want to study and go to school in a large city. Move to a suburban area for a couple of years while I settle down. And then permanently live in San Francisco when I'm married because I want to raise a family here :)

6. How old do you think you act? Explain.
Hm.. In comparison to teenagers my age, I think I act a couple of ages older. I'm definitely mature for my age.

7. If the world were to end tomorrow, what would you do with your remaining time on earth? 
Tell everyone just how much they mean to me and make sure they know how much I love them.

8. What do you want to be when you get older? Why did you choose it?
I want to be a surgeon. If I'm too squeamish for that, then I'd be an ER physician. I want to do something extraordinary with my life. I want to make a difference in the world, I want to change someones life, I want to save people. I want to start a medical trial and discover some cure for some disease or illness. I'm fascinated with the medical field.

9. Do you want children? Why or why not?
Yes, I do want children! My ultimate goal is to start a family of my own :) I can't wait to have kids!

10. Would you rather date someone plain with an amazing personality or someone beautiful with a plain personality?
Definitely someone plain with an amazing personality. No matter how attractive someone is, they're useless without substance to them.

11. If you could choose to live forever, would you? Why or why not?
No, I would not want to live forever. I can't bear watching the ones I love pass and have to meet new people again only to watch them pass again. I would rather live the time I'm given to the fullest :)

12. Do you wish for anything at 11:11? If so, what do you wish for?
I do! I'm not telling ^^

13. Short term goals for this month.
Start a work out routine, teach Hunter more tricks, purchase my prom dress, & stop freaking out about college acceptance letters.

14. What do you truly think about your friends?
I love her to death. I seriously have the best, best friend in the world and I would never take her for granted ever again. I am very lucky to have her in my life ^^

15. In this past month, what have you learned?
To realize what's in front of me and live in the moment. I've realized who is really there for me and who I can always depend on. I've learned a lot more about people that I thought I already knew. Hm, now thinking about it, I've learned a lot this month. Some good, some bad.

Lets get personal.

Last night, I felt the need to vent so I logged on and typed up a post. When I was all done expressing everything I was feeling, I hesitated before publishing it. After much debate, I decided to just save it as draft and end the night. Scrolling through my posts, I realize how many drafts I have of personal posts that I never publish. I don't blog about anything other than my days and when I do want to talk about something personal, I don't feel comfortable doing so. There are so many people who read my blog that it's just overwhelming. Sometimes, I want to be able to vent without being judged. I don't want to hear your comments and I don't want everyone to make assumptions of who it is that I'm writing about. At first, I thought I'd just make a private blog but after thinking about it for a while longer, I've decided to just go for it here. I'm going to vent my feelings here. I have nothing to hide and I honestly don't care what anyone thinks. My life is not perfect and I deserve to be able to discuss whatever I please. After all, it is MY blog. So from here on out, I'll be getting a little more personal.

To get myself more comfortable, I'll post up random questions I find from Tumblr challenges that I feel like answering :P

Monday, February 20, 2012


Lighting doesn't often strike twice. It's a once in a lifetime thing. Even if it feels like the shock is coming over and over again. Eventually, the pain will go away, the shock will wear off. And you start to heal yourself. To recover from something you never saw coming. But sometimes, the odds are in your favor. If you're in just the right place at just the right time, you can take a hell of a hit and still have a shot at surviving.

Lucky and blessed. Appreciating every moment of my life. 

Just screw the odds, screw science. Let's just live. Whatever happens, happens.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Saturday, February 18, 2012-

Slept in! Got my layers trimmed at my moms salon in the afternoon. They're way too long!! I didn't let my mom change the length of my hair at all though. Not even by a cm!!! LOL I love my long hair ^^ My curls will look a lot better now that I finally took the time out to get my layers trimmed. After the hair cut, we went to Ross to just look around. (Frank, Viv, Richard, & I) I bought this supeeer cute white coat ^^ So in love with it!! Then we stopped by for gelato! Been home since but Erica and Lance are coming over :D We're probably just going to hang out and eat.. LOL

Finally got to wear my new chain necklace ^^ In love with it!
 .... Then he fell off and made a mess. Crazy dog -.-
 Omg this is so funny LOOL He made the same facial expressions as I ^^

Friday, February 17, 2012-

No school (4 day weekend) ^^V Hike at Fort Funston in the morning! It was me, Frank, Erica, Lance, Jeanie, & Dennison! We brought Hunter, Lucky, Bebe, & Grizzly :) Hunter was not obedient :T He wandered off several times! Scared me half to death. After that, I came home to change. Went with Erica & Lance to Ericas house so she could change. Then Erica & I went shopping! We went to Tanforan and Serramonte. Shopped till the mall closed and bought so much cute stuff ^^ We then went for dinner at Boston Market. Chilled until Lance got off work and met up with babe (who went to the gym). We then went to watch The Vow! I really, really didn't like it. Not going to spoil it but I seriously disliked the movie :T If it weren't for Channing Tatum, the movie would be pointless. But Channing Tatum was to die for. LOL Me & Erica were joking about how no girl would complain if they woke up to find out that they were married to him. LOL Anyways, we then went to dessert at 1am! Got home superrrr late and slept at 3am ish! Longg day! Not too many photos: 

 AAAAAAAH. I WANNNNNNNT. But so hard to take care of ):
 Bebe! LOL

February 14, 2012- Valentine's Day :)

Valentine's day was super fun! School, homework, then dinner with my best friends! It was Frank, Erica, Lance, Jeanie, Dennison, & I so a triple date! Went to the same restaurant as last V-day (Be My Guest!) It's super cute there :P Anywhos, here are photos! 

School with babe! Wearing my white northface! Make up is smudged ): 
Aww, mommy sent me roses :P
Got ready for dinner!
This dress was actually really big :T My mom fixed it for me but it still didn't fit ): You can't really tell though!
Put my hair to one side!
I likes my curls :)
My valentine for the 5th year in a row!! 
Teddy bear from our first Valentine's Day together ^^V I remember dragging this thing around school in 8th grade! LOL
The best, best friends in the world!! Loves them to death ^^
I always order this :P
Lance & Frank!

February 13, 2012- My 18th Birthday!

Seriously can not believe I'm officially 18! It's crazy! School in the morning. (Boo....) Then Xiao Fei Yang (hot pot place) for my birthday celebration! LOL It was fun ^^ We stopped by somewhere before dinner and babe bought his prom tux ;) Here are pictures :)

Caprisun :D LOL 
On the way to dinner!
Yummy sauces.
Bathroom pics!
Veges and different types of mushrooms!
Yum! We occupied 4-5 tables :P
Babes & I :)
Johanna wanted to squeeze in!
Cake time!
Wish ^^
LOL She wanted a picture!