Bored as fuck ..

I have a confession ..

IM BORED. Hm, i feel kinda happy though. I think i'm pmsing LOL .. so i ordered boots online & i can't wait till they're here. I think thats why im happy. LOL Babes takin me to serra 2m :D .. + its almost our 1 1/2 year anniversary :O .. Holy fuckkk. How many months is that .. like 18 ? .. i think. But yeah, i love him to death :) Hm, my sisters gonna get a belly button piercing soon & im wondering if i should get one too. Gaah, looks painful but i mean, it can't be that bad .. right ? ><>forever ! Hm, ill play some counter strike and then sleep early today. Gotta wake up at 12:30 2m >< .. GAAAH LOL yeah, imma lazy bum. Go away >:/ ..

Bad Day ..

I have a confession ..

Another fish died -.- Gah, i guess i can't take care of them for shit ! >< .. anyways, so i watched the ugly truth yesterday. Ahaha, i love that movie ! It was real funny. Uhm, i was supposed to go out today but eh, plans changed. I'm a stubborn bitch @ times. Well, i didn't tell you guys how i really felt about it but yeah, it hurts but i dont wanan start shit over this -.- Life sucks. FML -.- I'm in a bad mood. Its been a bad day. I'm sick & tired of everything. Gah, make it better >< ..

Rest in peace fishaaay ..

I have a confession ..

My goldfish just died. I've only had it for 5 days. FML ): .. I think imma go bury it tomorrow. Why do i feel so guilty, its just a fish ! >:/ .. Well i saw this coming LOl He's been floating around in the tank on its side for a while now o.O & as far as i know, fish don't sleep .. -.- Poor fishy tried hard to survive for another day. Anyways ..

R.I.P. Fishy
July 18 - July 23

You were a strong one.

My day ..

I Have A Confession ..
It's kinda funny how you don't have any ideas of your own. -.- Gah w/e, i don't care so much bout biters anymore. Well, not as much as i used to. But yeah, you'll prob read this -.- Go get your own shit ! Okay, enough of thatt. Hm, my feet really hurt. It was supposed to be a girls day today. We were supposed to go ice skating but uh, we were like what, 3 hrs late ? LOLL. this is the 3rd time this summer ive went ' ice skating ' but was late. Gahh LOL i really wanna go ): .. Um, we ended up just goin around dt. Went to ct & alla that. Then stones till it closed on us and we HAD to leave. GAAAAAAY. I only got a top and gloves today. Hm, i have NO idea what im doing 2m. ANYONE FREE ?! GAH -.- LOL i wonder if jeanies free :D .. my feet hurt. I want a foot massage :( .. Stupid boots. Okay, this blog is pointless. I think i should talk about something more serious and write actual confessions .. i can't really think of any right now .. hm .. maybe another time. LOL i dont feel like thinking :) Okie dokes, imma go .. think of new hairstyles, do my nails, and um .. watch another episode of " The secret life of the american teenager " i find that show entertaining :) .. Mkays, bye.

Its been hard lately ..

I have a confession ..

The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be.

It's been real hard lately. Friday was one of the worst days in my entire life. Eh, lets not talk about that. Today, was .. alright. Ups & downs. It's REALLY hard trying to do two things at the same time. I try, real hard .. every single day but its just never enough for you guys .. Yet, i still feel the need to apologize for making you guys the way that you do. It would be nice if you'd notice the effort i put into it.. But yeah, anyways, i'm sorry. Gah, on the other hand, theres something on my mind im HELLA worrying about. I'm not gonna say exactly what but gaaah ! >< .. Life sucks right now. -.- Omfg, + i haven't started reading the school books yet ! And i dont know when the freakin orientation is -.- If whoever reading this knows .. PLEASE tell me .. LOL I have no idea whats up for 2m. but its monday, so fam day. I dont have much else to blog about, so ill just end it. Byeeees :)

It's not hard to find the truth. What is hard is not to run away from it once you have found it.

Crazy in love ..

I Have a Confession ..

Love makes people do crazy things. After all you've put me through, there's no doubt in my mind that i still wanna be with you. I'm madly in love with you.

ANYWAYS; Hm, just got up. Yuup, slept in today. LOL no idea what im doing today though. It was gonna be stones/ ymca but i dont feel like doing something active. Today is sunny :) .. puts me in a better mood. Oh yeah, my parents let me get a new comp :) Well actually, my friends are buildin it but yeah, they approved it ! AAAAH. I'm excited. Hm, i haven't got time to upload any pics ><>:[ .. If shes readin this, she sucks LOL Hm .. i think shes back soon though .. ish .. LOL no idea. IM STARVINGGGGG but i gotta wait for my sister to cook breakfast/ lunch. Oh yeah, so since my dad is staying in china for a couple of months longer, ive been home alot and i have to learn how to survive on myself. So, this summer, i learned how to wash the dishes, cook for myself, and all that house shit. I wanna learn how to do the laundry though. LOL Gah, i have antoher confession. I fuckin miss china. Idk why but theres just this feeling when your there. You just feel so loved by my family there, theres absolutely no stress, and you pretty much spend all you want and do w/e you like. I miss that .. i guess its not that bad here but i can honestly say, i'm not as happy. I would wanna go again next year with no doubt. Oh well, dreading over that doesn't do any good. Okie, im gonna go get ready now, to whereever i'm going .. o.O MARLENE + JEANIE. WAAAAAKE UPPPPPPPPPPPP. LOL mkays, bye :)

Imma burnt marshmallow ! ..

Hello :) .. So uh, yesterday was pretty hot & we went to the beach. I'm a fuckin burnt marshmallow. Sucks LOL .. i NEVER tan, i BURN. :/ Anyways, hm im starting this journal with quotes and shit so i guess ill take pics of them and put them up sometime. Babe brought his computer over for me to use :) MUHAHA now i got 2 screens & i can play games. Ahah, pretty sick. I kinda want him to build me one too but im not sure yet. GAH, i want a bigass dog hella bad. Maybe my dad will be in a good mood when he gets back from china and MAYBE i could get one .. LOL Uhm .. so its like frekin 2 PM and im still home in my pjs. We don't know hwere to go so idk if i should get ready or not. Vivs friend brought over KFC :) Maybe i should eat .. im starving. Gah, this entry is random & a lil boring. Well, i dont have much serious shit i wanan post up. Okie, imma go eat now (:

I AM ..

GAH ! I haven't wrote in forever. Ahah, after this one, i guess that'll most likely happen again. So whats been goin on .. hm, ive just been goin out a lot, haha its summerrrrr, imma live it up ! Lifes been rough and im feeling VERY depressed. Fuck. Ahah, my computer crashed and i lost like 8,000 pictures. I lost fuckin middle school memories. How depressing but its time to make more. Im gonna stop thinkin bout the past and live the future to its fullest. I think its about time i stop missin the old days. Well, theres not that much that happened. I have a lotta new pics but i can't even upload it. Haha, im currently on my sisters comp. Anyways, today i went to great mall. :) 2m= Beach. Yesterday = Serra + Stones + Marlenes house .. and the day before .. uh .. i dont remmeber anymore .. Teheh. I just found a quote im in LOVE with ! Lemme put it here.

I AM ...
I am a daughter, a sister, a grand-daughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend. I am a partner, a student, a young girl, and a grown woman. I am confident and scared, terrified and excited. I am loving and caring, and thoughtful and hopeful. I am sick and tired. I am shy and friendly, and careful and careless. I am broken and whole. I am misunderstood, misguided, and mislead. I am hard working and determined, but a little scared on the inside. I wish on starts and dream my dreams. I pray to god and cry my tears. I smile on the outside, while i'm dying on the inside. I listen to others who won't listen to me. i walk on eggshells, and i walk on fire. I believe in passion, but not true love. I love you, but i push you away. I want you, but not too close. I am everything and nothing all at once. And all i want is for you to simply ..
LOVE ME.

Haha, it really relates to me :) .. i guess thats all i have to update on. Uhm, next blog will be in a week or so .. :/ SORRRRRY. Alrights, im gonna do something productive or interesting. Bye :)

Holy Shit, I'm Back ! ..

I have a confession ..

HOLY SHIT ! Its been a month since i've written. Gah, without being able to blog in china was waaaaack but at least i got there & back safe :D. Honestly, i can say my trip was better then i thought it would be. When i think about it, i am fortunate to have an oppertunity to go on a vacation like that. I know many people who would love to take my place, so i guess i should appreciate it. Hm, i think i'll create another blog to write about my days in china. I recorded everything in a notebook :) + i got about ... 1,000 or more pictures ? I'll choose a few and put that up too. So babe picked me up from the airport w/ a dozen of roses. Omfg, idk why but when i saw him i got butterflies. I was nervous and when i'm nervous, i'm clumsy as hell >< I fell a few times :X .. I liked that feeling though, it made me happy. I think this is the first time in a longggggg time that i've been satisfied with my life. :) Oh & i bought hella shit from china :D .. I think i have about 15 new pairs of shoes, 15 purses, 20 belts, and a bazillion necklaces, bracelets, & hair shit ! Oh, & 4 new swimsuits .. + other shit i don't remember .. LOL Hehe, i'm happy :) Frank just went to mail his moms bill & hes still not back -.- Grrrrrr .. Anywyas, i wonder when i'll get to hang with the group and have another girls day .. I miss it ! + i have a lotta gifts for them. Alright, i'm done ! Byes :)