Lifes too short to dwell on all thats wrong ..

I have a confession ..

Boys are complicated. When i try to chase you and apologize, accept it cause I'm not about to do it again. Stop playing hard to get. I'm not about to dread over some stupid shit. I'm better then that, i can pick myself back up. Fuck off >:/

P.S: Sorry for the cussing, i'm very angrified !

Favorite Song;

You see it all in my smile, you hear it all in my laugh
The way I walk you hear me talkin, no, I'm no longer sad
I've got more reason to smile more now than I've ever had
Open my eyes and realized that nothing's quite that bad
I've got a different approach to dealin' with emotion
Keeping control of my boat while drifting on this ocean
Keepin my head to the sky, keepin tears outta my eyes
Unless happiness be the reason that I decide to cry.
' I know bout standing up saying enough is enough. '
This song mother fucking picks me up.

I've always wanted to ..

I have a confession ..

I want to buy a new camera and take scenery pics :) I've always wanted to do that, but i don't wanna use my parents' money for a better camera :/ I feel bad. Hm, i'll eventually have to get one anyways, so might as well !

P.S. i'll try to write shorter blogs now cause their getting boring ;/

Heart pain ..

I have a confession ..

I'm feeling heart pain right now .. i've been having heart burns all throughout my life but this time it feels different .. i'm scared.

Happiness/ Movies ..

I have a confession ..

Happiness ..

I've been really happy this entire weekend. Always jumping around, giggling, laughing, smiling. I can never sit still ! I wasn't sure why & i thought i was going crazy; a good type of crazy. After putting a lot of thought into it, i realized its because of him. We had a deep talk on Friday & he really cheered me up. He showed me change & now he sees how much it means to me. How something that small can make such a big difference in my emotions. It improved our relationship, even though its only been 3 days. But now, i'm scared he won't keep it up. Scared that my hopes will be shattered ..

Movies ..

On saturday night, i watched " p.s i love you ". Wowww, what an emotional movie O.O .. It really opened my eyes to how important he means to me .. how i'd be if he weren't here anymore. I'd go crazzzzzzy, just like that girl. Haha, after the movie, i was in tears. :/ Well, if you haven't seen it yet, i suggest you do. It made me realize that i should enjoy every moment spent w/ him, & love him while hes still here. Fuck the fights & fuck the bullshit because if something happened, i wanna have absolutely no regrets. I watched obsessed on friday, and it was REAL good. The love they had was so cute, ahah i wanna grow up to be like that :) Oh, and i watched 21 today. It wasn't amazing but it was pretty good. Whoah, lots of movies recently ! Haha, kay, i'm out !

It's STUPID ..

I have a confession ..

I hate it when adults underestimate children. For example, when i'm out w/ friends, they always think we won't pay or we'll steal. Not all of us are like that & it irritates me when they follow me around the store. >:/ i guess i can't do anything about it though cause a lotta kids are like that. Stealing is stupid. Dine & dash is fucked. I'm not like that. I hope you aren't either.

I'm in love w/ donnie ! ...

I have a confession ..

DONNIE KLANG IS MOTHER FUCKIN SEXXXXXXY. I just finished watching MTB4 Finale; the last chapter. Yeah, i'm obsessed w/ that shit. Idk, i just had to express myself :)

Watch this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0fgfxgn9FQ
He's sexy as fuck.

Usually, no one agrees w/ me. But i don't even give a fuck anymore ! He's sexy.

It picks me up ..

I have a confession ..

Sometimes i'm able to stay positive & cheer myself up. Other times, i just feel like curling up into a ball and giving up. I constantly have mood swings. I can be laughing and the next second i'm down. Idk, i'm weird. Recently, my life have been a roller coaster ride. I'm hoping to turn that around. After my last blog & advice from Erica ( that hobo ), i've actaully been able to cheer myself up ! Ahah, i think about consequences & how everything i do, all my actions, will effect me, the rest of my day, or maybe even my life. I don't know how long i will be able to keep this up, the whole being positive thing, but i sure hope it'll be a long time. The one thing that has been helping me keep myself up is music. Amazingly, it gets me thinking. The lyrics, i relate them to myself. It picks me up :)